I'm sure I'm going to ramble from all number of things, from the goofy such as the state of NASCAR or the new Spider-Man movie - to serious, as to how we face life, how to relate to God, ect. For those of you who don't know me and stumble upon this, the short version is I'm a 26 year old guy who's made the wrong decisions (oh, so many) in his life, and is no where near what I thought I'd be at this age. However, I believe that God has a purpose for everyone, and there is a reason all things happen.
Its with this in mind that I state the primary purpose of my blog: I want to help other people who are just like me. I'll admit it, I've struggled with depression most of my adult life, especially the last 5 years. I'm a stubborn guy (those who know me are nodding their heads!), so I'm not one to broadcast that normally, or seek help. To me, I felt I should just suck it up.
However, I find myself having lived a quarter of a century, and nothing to show for it. My Dad is fond of pointing out, and rightly so, how much money I could have made in my time working from 16-26, and the fact I have nothing in the bank account. My personal life has been in tatters for about 2 years, as I have refused to move on from a situation in my past. My fitness has stagnated since I returned from Basic Training last year, with myself using my knee injury as a convenient excuse to keep from pushing myself.
To quote from Steve Pavlias blog:
...At the end of a month, I couldn’t really think of many salient events that occurred during the month. I had no job, no car, no income, no goals, no plans, and no real future. All I felt I had was a lot of problems that weren’t getting any better. I had no sense that I could control my path through life. I would simply wait for things to happen and then react to them.
That's me in a nutshell, and its time for that to change. The thing that defines us is what we do after rough times come, when the storm has passed and you survey the damage. Do you suck it up, and move forward? Or do you wallow around, thinking whats the point? I'm ashamed to say I've become more of the second one, and that's not good enough.
So, hopefully in between my musings on Batman and Alabama football, there might be some gems that speak to you, or spark something that you'd want to share with me. I'm sure I'll be pulling from all manner of things, such as "Wild at Heart", Steve's blog, and a new book I'm reading by the late Coach John Wooden. I'm going to be working at organizing and structuring my life, and hopefully I can become the man and father I need to be, and who knows...maybe one day a husband for someone. Never know whats out there (Though God bless her soul, she's going to need it! haha!)
Anyways, welcome to the blog, and I hope you enjoy it.
Sincerely,
Chris
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